where did u go

its no longer overly sensitive when all 4 people think otherwise
its just this gut feeling that i've got ever since he texted me about the position of co-chair
and kiat just confirmed my intuition ytd
what could be worse than this
it seems like the journeys back home on sat morning, to hall on sun evening, gossips, htht sessions, close friendship have disappeared
whats with all the new found power and authority thats driving people to the corner
what do u get at the end of the day?
everlasting status or relationship?
i was totally crushed when nic told me only 2 seniors and a few juniors turn up for the daily family dinner
i suppose the jcrc contestants have their own hidden agenda
even kyle might not mean what he said
hall 1 is no longer the home that i used to seek refuge in
simps no longer gives me the sense of attachment
jay is no longer the jay i used to know
what remains the same is perhaps just the hostel building

everybody knows

it seems like u just dont know
nobody has it easy
nobody really knows how to make it work
its way before recess week and im burning out
thats probably the max i can do for iels vp cum omc co-chair
power is all u want?

pictureofu

beautiful dream in the night awakens her
but melancholy sets in the morning
when she realise it was just a dream

watusangduringspnight

im just goin to try my best like i used to
and ignore the inhibitory factors
unprecedented for 3 yrs
this cant be wrong
take the plunge

fat gulp

i admitted defeat after 2 weeks of traveling to pulau nanyang
esp when i have 3 days of 8.30am lessons that virtually ended around 5.30 which then again, hits the dismissal crowd
love and caiqi actually asked me to squat in their room
im seriously considering!
im not that desperate about enjoying the hall recreational life cos im sure things are going to be quite different starting this sem
with my close friends having their other half around, i cant possibly play with them like we used to!
im still feeling quite guilty abt what happened on tue
sighsss
plus jay being the co-chair now, im feeling the invisible barrier
nonetheless, after talking to quek, kiat, love and howard aft hall bash, i've finally decided to fight for it
im giving myself a deadline thou, and that'll be recess week
i'll back out if no good to go till then
at least what i said to my bestie applies the same for me as well!

after ages

Back here, tired after gurions bday party at gallery hotel
had a good chat at starbucks with weng
saw some lecturers and it was really heartwarming to hear their encouragement
it somehow gives me the drive to work hard again
foc
good feedback from everyone
a lot of them said that foc for this yr was much better than last yr's
i really felt appreciated FOR ONCE for all my effort i've put in for hall foc
comments bout fright night was pretty good
im glad to know that the setting managed to pull off the motivation for the scenes
esp when i know its a one man show-ish
i really wonder what was goin thru sammy's mind when cheryl told everyone that i was almost the only one left to handle fright night and that i was doin well as a junior programmer
it felt extremely satisfying not to give shiling face at all during foc
for all the black face and shit she's been giving me for the past one yr
im giving all back to her - double power
last week i went back to hall and get my em104 from caiqi
im lucky enough!
managed to add immediately once she dropped it
on my way back i saw bong, huixiang and kenneth
they wanted me to run for CP
saying they will get me a room no matter what if im willing to run
but yeah, who are they to say no matter what
anw what are the chances of getting it
political issues, period
hall bash
that was last tue
till 1pm, no transport back
so jay walked me home
it was a nice stroll (: