how much can a previous trauma haunt u?

met up with Kent and Lilian today. I feel happy for her. Just hope that FuLong will treat her a lot better now. Gd Luckies!!! Well, today was quite constructive. Had whole 4hrs of heart to heart talk with Prince. I really feel so much better now. Like a burden off my shoulder. All I can say that he's really good. V GD!!! Kent Hoo is the best!!! Im super glad he's mature enough to analyse and explain things to a stupid gal like me. Thx for that!!!! I owe u lots!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night in Spore was hard. Thou I did voice out, but I was still confused. I really wanted to call Raine. Somehow, I feel that only she can understand my position and give me an advice. But didnt manage to talk on the phone with her.

And now, Im back in Spore. She called me ytd aftn. Had a short conver. The mood was there again. Actually I did had a lot of fun there, thou it was really dirty and I was seriously bitten by mosquito. But it was all worth it. The stars there reminded me of the time I spent in Bali. Just that the state of mind is totally diff when I was in Bali. I miss the great times.

I wont mind staying there a lil longer. Cos I will be there with my fellow friends...And wont have to think bout real issue.

PeiHui called me just now. And then I told her. She said she felt sad for me...HaHa! I guess I understand. But dont be worried bout me..Im sure I will be alright....And I miss her loads...I wanna get her out to have a chatting session with me!!! I love u!!! Muackz!!!

Had a small talk with Geok today. Main purpose was to go Chinatown and get the stuff I need for GLs camp. And we ended up pouring and sharing each other’s woes. Which is what we always do but have never done it for a long time alr. And of cos. I told her everything. She’s actually the 2nd person to know. Haha. I think she must be feeling damn honored. Anyway, I was so super emo while I was telling her everything. And if im not wrong, that was the 3rd time I cried in front of her. And I realized Im a very stupid gal. But then again, what can I do…Her side of the story wasn’t much better too. But at least Ernest is trustable. So she should be happy with it. And I think I have another skin prob again. This time is pigmentation. Actually I don’t understand why I just have all these endless skin probs. Unfortunate me. No matter how hard I try, all these probs always seem to get to me. I can’t imagine how ugly I will become once I turn 21. Im really scared. Somebody save me. But anyway, these are the things I bought today.

~2 sets Pierre Cardin lingerie
~Adidas body spray
~Disposable underwear
~Nail polish
~Suntan lotion (finally a protective one)