apparatus jumpsuit red

Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me
Well its hard to sustain
I'll cry if you let me

Conversation btw Weng and me suddenly rang in my ears
i gave it a miss, i regretted, but will i ever gain another chance like that
or is it a once in a live time opportunity
i pondered and i think its interesting how humans relate to each other and how chemistry sparked btw both parties
strangers became friends, or even more than that

flying bali

will be leaving for Bali tmr
best memory so far thruout the whole poly days
people know why
but this time its different
i dont have the feeling that things gonna change somehow when i come back
since im goin there again
i will try reliving the moments again
thats all its left with now
i miss him

birthday

all the celebrations were nice and sweet
thanks to all my pig and dog friends
im really really really happy
went to meet WENG on sun night after dinner
the whole while i was complaining bout how i've pwn myself
i swear it was super embarrasing
=(
she love the flocks and i love the flocks too
the flocks are a good bunch of people
with sama sama dress sense. hur

rhyme and reason

primary reason for uni admission
primary reason for hall accomodation
if i were them, i would feel the same way too
why would i even bother with the latter when the former has showered me much glory and satisfaction
read the brochure at the tuition centre
its really trueee
i understand i understand
short, fat, ugly, useless, problematic
if you can see this, it shows that you are observant. hurhur

then and now

Last year

1) Get over
2) Able to get into uni

''See. Last year i help your pray tat y. Dun worry. You will have a good boyfriend. And you will stay happy one."

makes me wonder how am i suppose to react when i see this.

Oh. and i did barister station today. my first try! like what Gris said. that'll be my favourite station. i love it!

chunky monkey aside now

gotta grab hold of time
now that sch's approaching soon
needa met up with old friends more often
sat was good
went to the new coffee club at TBP with bin & mich
as usual, gossip. bitch. brrr
mostly revolving bout missy sim with heaps of bad debts but still insisting in keeping the carsss
bin got a tongue piercing and was suffering like a cold turkey chic
hurhur. way to go! more days of porridge and freezing cold water
next to mich's house to see her kid
that was my first time visiting the lil' cute boy
supra big eyes and gorgeous SMILE
best piece of news is that she's shifting to my estate for REAL!
yayness! gossiping and babysitting. truckloads!

phase

guess i will always be in awe by young writters who are into art and philosophical things. if your one, u know i will be impressed by u truckloads.

sometimes, my way of thinking do get thwarted, in a positive way, digressing from the reality and practical thinking of youngsters nowadays. more often than not, work comes tertiary. not that i have no interest in earning money to satisfy my spending urge. but life is much more than giving in to financial temptation. and cos of my desire to understand the society and in depth realisation of the way things usually turn out, i considered sociology. i seriously think my brain is constructed for critical and philosophical thinking rather than hardcore analytical thinking. so modules like science do not really suits me. but i have still decided to persue in this field. i suppose its human nature. homo sapiens having phobia of drastic changes. im typical of that. worst case, i will switch to sociology and waste one yr of studies!

these few days have been wasted emoing over some crappy issues. should start with my reading and photography soon. then i will work my ass off the nxt month before school reopens. at least i should be glad i will be able to be roommates with sharon dearie. im thankful enough to have buds by my side when the skies are overcast. and im glad that CJ is back in Singapore!

1) passed diving theory!
2) next is btt -.-
3) bali advance diving
4) pray real real real hard that i will be taught skating


life aint always a fantasy. that is why we need friends by our side when those dreams have fallen

companion

its good to know that im not the only loser hanging ard
haha
i discovered another loser today
we are the fellow losers
u loser, we shall meet and gossip one fine day. hurhur
but this afternoon was unbearable cos im home alone
work was okay
collecting pay tmr :)
but needa pay off the debts :(

off to bali soon
the perfect place
the perfect one
muhaha

gone baby gone

loser failed my diving test
retest coming up on thu
Lord allow me to pass it well
didnt hear from thiamhuat for so long
only god knows hes goin to last with jane for so long
went back to collect my stuff after test
theres no more reason for me to go back
i didnt say bye to him
guess it was pretty obvious
let it be
loser cum sucker cum failure
how am i goin to break free


can we just stop the nonsense
its guilt ridden

saviour pls

diving test tmr
totally not in the mood to study for it
i have no mood to do any right things at all
these few days have been a whole lot of nonsense
every single bullshit got the better of me


taboos taboos and more taboos
if no restrictions, i would have worshipped it
and bin is enjoying it too
great. one more buddy to chill


late night outs
laughing till i got that splitting headache
heck the scoldings
chatting till 4am was great
wonderful entertainment by felix and hao
many thanks to u buddy who acc me till 4 while i was emoing thru-out the whole night
wasteful and unconstructive lifestyle im leading


im correcting and trying to change for the better
but seemingly no chance given
i dont wanna compare but i cant help it
after ytd i finally realise the reason for my uni entry
it wasnt for myself
trying to prove my worth?
one day i will realise theres no room for comparison
i know. they know. the whole world knows




and only perfect one can save me
26 sept 2005
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Hong Kong Diary

less drink and smoke. more life. bullshit-.-

bravo thai food and cosmo;

where the hung hing legend and my hero lies;

hong kong national chinese chess assembly;

typical concrete jungle;

street flavors;



bluzzling MongKok night life;

no sir

thats what u get when u let ur heart win
well i can trust myself with
anything but this

great guess
time when i need a big tight slap from friends
it got the better of me
fuck it

my country. my land.

oh~
im back here from the 5 days weight gaining spree
and im missing all my pigs and dogs pals
it dampens me everytime i received NTUs letter regarding admission matters
i dont wanna get into the crazy rat race that soon yet
im only starting to enjoy this
why do we have to grow up