Revelation

Wonder if I have a serious flaw in my character
I get people ps-ing me for housing and for modules enrolment - its okay
they are all new friends after all and prolly dont care much about me
but its strange when u get the same treatment from good friends
feeding u with all these last minute information, standing u up, etc
relationship wise, being treated like a toy - alright i resigned to that though i know better than anyone else I have put in my whole heart and soul
frienship wise, more than just my heart and soul, but every bit of me, to render any help if needed, staying up to listen to the rants, all the grievances. I've done every bit I could to make them feel better.
I dont know what more can I do to make myself a more worthy friend - a friend that can be taken seriously for
It's so disappointing and hurtful to get all these at the end of the day
I dont deserve the best, but I definitely dont deserve the worst
How much do I actually worth in people's heart
Maybe Im the one who is fucked up, not anyone else