I know that I have to wake up from my dreams, no matter how much I still wanna indulge in it. But one thing I dont understand why is it always be, to have to be the victim, to be the heartbroken one for 4 years. But I have come to terms with it that this is my life. And I wont for anything more in the futur, just live the way it is carved out for me, because there are thorns at the side of the walkway, so i have no choice but to follow the path ahead, or else I will get hurt and bleed. But its a little to late to realise it. Cos Im already bleeding profusely now. And I can only be envious of the happy couples.